its all so empty.

why do i feel so empty. i have everything iv ever wanted! oh who am i kidding, my ex boyfriend is becoming my bestfriend, my boyfriend fkng hates me, my friends are all turning against me, i cant have GUY friends without damion getting MAD, my mother is getting worse and worse, idk what to do about moving in with my dad, my cell phone sucks.!. and iv given up on all my dreams. i make myself soound so pitiful! but im not. i dont think... or am i? all this is really happening but do i make it seem worse than it is? is it worse than i make it seem? im losing my inner dinosaur :( i feel so sad/upset all the time. i pretend to be happy. i tell damion he cheers me up but.... idk. and scott is reaelly getting to me! i could just friken KICK him! i am a bad speller too :( and i have to study for this stupid test! growl! im just all.... ick. i wana be happy. really truly thats all iwant. to just live day by day with a pretty smile on my ugly face. and just make everything seem not so bad. AND OMFG! i lost my journal! [its basicly my diary!] ugh :(